I wanna write

I woke up this morning and feeling sad about what will happen for the following days to come. Knowing everything will come to an end. I've been there, a place where all I can see is eyes watering with the loneliness of parting. That part when you are standing at the cross roads and trying to figure out where to go. Trying to at least cater what you feel and console it . I been through goodbyes, then comes moving on and it was always like that. I've been there and I guess I've done it also. I said goodbye and I moved on. But I realized every goodbyes are different you can say they are the same but when you picture it they are not. Every goodbye has its own story, characters and settings. It's like a movie over again. This I will never forget about it "we had fun while it lasted" said by my uncle who went here in the country four years ago as we were heading in the airport. Yes we did, we had fun all the little and detailed memories that we did throughout those days that we were together. The happiness, experiences, even our cries and laughter was there until today. It never changes it cannot be brought back to life but it can be remember for all our life in this world.
Today I felt like writing again. Writing our stories together, how we made it this far, how we became a family, one that I will never forget until the day I die. We are not perfect in our own way. But through each other we learn and move on through our life. We love in a way that even the silliest thing matters to us, we mocked each other yet we open our arms to each other for an embrace. We fight like we can never be friends or family again sometimes we say hurtful words. Yet, we humble ourself and put it back the friendship and love we found in each other. We say sorry then we laugh, we cry then we eat. That's the funny thing about us, we eat a lot and I also pay for it. But one thing this goodbye makes me wanna write again?! How it made me realize, that I don't want to just remember everything one day I want to never forget them. I wanna write them so that one day if we happen to bump at each other again we might do the things we did before. And maybe in that time we are not going to say goodbye. I wish to say this in front of you, but I don't have the courage to say it. I guess I wanna write coz its my way of saying I love you. How you are to me? I didn't know what happened. But not knowing what happened is worth it for in this life I found precious gems priceless and beautiful. Life may want us to write, one thing I will write may never know what to, but I will always know what it's all about. Good byes are not the hardest they are the very exciting part of life.