Bakit? Mga Tanong na Walang Kasagutan

I am in a deep state no one could ever understand. It is being in a reality and continue dreaming with whats not gonna happen. Thinking about it I can certainly feel the agony inside my chest pounding ripping everything I have inside. What did I do wrong to feel this? I feel empty thinking over and over again. I feel sorry for myself having this feeling I dont even know why Im feeling this. Maybe because love is free and so is pain. 

Kelan ba naten mararamdaman na okay na talaga tayo? Yung wala ng sakit? Na kapag naaalala mo yung dati di kana masasaktan?! Bakit kailangan naten pagdaanan yung mga bagay na akala naten magiging masaya tayo pero sa huli masasaktan lang pala tayo o kung hindi naman tayo ang makakasakit. Bakit kailangan naten ulit ulitin yung mga nangyari na before if in reality di na naten mababalik yun?! Bakit ang sakit sakit pa din knowing you've move on 5 years ago. Bakit ang sakit knowing you're happy now, and just for a moment you remember that memory of him it hurts. Why??? Why i need to feel this? Bakit ako nahihirapan? Bakit? Kelan ako magigising na kahit kelan di na mababalik yung dati? Na di na tayo kelan magiging magkaibigan na di na magiging tulad ng dati? Bakit ang dami kong tanong na di ko masasagot na walang taong makakasagot? Na kahit alam ko na yung sagot eh ayoko pa din tangganpin? Bakit? Bakit? Bakit?